HM got fired and he's not even sad about it, now he's got more time for his music and his other job. For me, of course, it means, i've got more work to do, but what i'm really unhappy about is that there'd be no more whistling, swinging, red bull drinking, spinning the chair, discussing, hair sniffing, joking around, humming, pencil drumming, sneezing at the same time, chatting, .. at work.

i feel tired and gloomy all of a sudden.

:(

Work keeps me well-balanced lately, reasons why:

at work:

i can actually see positive changes.
i'm not a burden to anyone.
i'm able to fix the chaos that someone else left behind.
my opinion actually matters.
i get to drink free coffee and orange juice/coke light all the time. (thanks to our client)
people smile.
i'm surrounded by books and not bills.

yes, my work does sound like paradise to me lately, but its not really, i still have to withstand MMs scrutiny or ATs big brother attitude, but sadly work has been my solace for the past few days.
of course there is more to life than work, but lately (just lately, i hope) my work gives me more life than well, life itself.

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a tribute to one of my fave bands (this is so my song at the moment)

firewoman - hungry young poets

the moons gone down,

i know you're still awake.

this heart i found,

i didnt intend to break,

coz i've seen the world from down there

and it wasn't a pretty sight.

now the circle is turning,

are you warm for the fight?

i wanna be your firewoman

i'll water down your desire

coz i know this love is a killer

i wanna put your fire.

apologies, its futility.

now destiny, is not a friend

coz i've seen the world from down there

and it wasnt a pretty sight.

now the circle is turning,

are you gonna be alright?

did you come from danger?

you gave me love for pain.

now you're much more than a stranger.

i wanna give you love but all i have is rain.

(Drums rollin')

tadaaa.. ladies and gentlemen, my crush has a blog!!! awoooooooooooooooooo!